MaeLynn and her family had a nice surprise last week. Some young women from a nearby ward brought the "Holidays" to their home. One night it was Halloween and the kids got to trick or treat. Another night was Thanksgiving, and the young women brought a whole Thanksgiving dinner along with a pineapple dressed like a turkey. Another night was Christmas with a small tree and gifts for everyone. MaeLynn said it was so fun to watch her kids as each night would unfold. Triston would answer the door and shout, "Mommmmmm! The candy people are here again!"
Things are about the same for MaeLynn. She sleeps most of the day. When she is awake, she has almost constant anxiety. The change in medication hasn't done much to curb her unease. Yes, she is lucid, but to MaeLynn it doesn't feel like a good place to be. She fidgets a lot and is constantly feeling like she's boxed in and needs to be somewhere else.
She doesn't feel hardly any physical pain, but her emotional/mental anguish is intense.
One frustration she related to me yesterday is not being able to type. She LOVES all the notes, e-mails, prayers, and phone calls going out to her and for her. She says she can feel them like a force around her. She tried to get on Facebook the other day and respond to people, but she just couldn't type. She has always been a good typist and grammatist, but she said she spent more time backspacing than typing decent words. She knows where the letters are on the keyboard, she just can't get her fingers to type the right things. It is VERY frustrating to her. So, just so you all know...she does read your notes! She loves getting them! But you may not get a response. She tried dictating to Andy to have him type some messages for her, but that's hard, too. She wanted me to also let everyone know that you're welcome to call anytime. You may not get to talk to MaeLynn as she is asleep alot, but she doesn't mind phone calls at all.
I often wonder why death is prolonged...not just for MaeLynn but for many many people. One LDS article that helped shed a little light on this for me is titled, "The Uses of Suffering" by Sandra Ferrin Strange. If you go to lds.org gospel library, you can read it.
http://www.lds.org/ldsorg/v/index.jsp?hideNav=1&locale=0&sourceId=0b3367700817b010VgnVCM1000004d82620a____&vgnextoid=2354fccf2b7db010VgnVCM1000004d82620aRCRD
One last thought from my 6-year-old/Lilo and Stitch: Love is stronger than death.
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being able to come to your home to celebrate the "holidays" with you did so much for my young women. They learned more by doing than any spoken lesson could have. Each one of them spoke of how they grew to really feel love for your family. One girl had lost her Mom to cancer 7 years ago and finally felt like she was able to give back in a small way to those who gave to her. they love you, We love you , I love you! What a shining example of this years theme, Joshua 1:9 you are to all who know and meet and love you!
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderful idea. So glad that you all could have more holidays together. Love you all. Praying for you everyday.
ReplyDeleteI am so glad that people close are doing such wonderful things. Maelynn you are in my thoughts and prayers constantly. I love you so much.
ReplyDeleteHow fun to have the holidays brought to you! I'm so glad I was able to come see you and spend time with your kids, the other day. They are so sweet!
ReplyDeleteThat is an incredible article!! Thinking of you today, MaeLynn
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